I would have been quite the sight last night, had anyone been home — standing in our kitchen, laying out ingredients to make dinner, messy bun, drenched in sweat, still in my clothes from CrossFit.
And then there were the five-and-a-half inch heels.
Yesterday, my swimsuit shoes came in the mail. They’re Chinese Laundry’s Tippy Tops, the new go-to pageant swimsuit standard, and boy, are they high.
If you’ve been following me on Instagram, you’ve probably gathered that I’ve entered myself into the Miss Maryland USA pageant. Three months from now, I’ll be spending Halloween Weekend in all of my spray-tanned glory, competing in interview, evening gown, and — you got it — swimsuit in those five-and-a-half inch Tippy Tops.
A lot of people have asked me why I’m competing. Aren’t I a little old? Too short? And why would a grown adult want to get on stage in heels and a teeny-weeny bikini to try and win a rhinestone hat (it sure does sound silly when you put it like that)?
Here’s why: I want to be Miss Maryland USA, and, as it turns out, the only way I can be Miss Maryland USA is to compete on Halloween Weekend. I want to spend a year of my life teaching kids across the state that goal setting is important, no dream is silly, and that they are capable, valuable, and unstoppable.
What’s more, I want to share with women that it is powerful to boldly embrace your dreams, even if they don’t fit into everyone else’s definition of success. That you can choose to have, do, and become anything you imagine. That the only limitation to your success is you.
I am competing because in three months, I want to be the very best version of myself. I want to work hard in the gym, eat clean, find my never-before-seen abs, and be totally confident in my own skin. I want to push myself mentally and physically because character is developed in the grind. I want to be on top of the news, learn how to finally do my own hair and make-up, and I want to
walk strut in those Tippy Tops like a boss.
Most of all, I am competing because I want to. Because spending a weekend surrounded by some of the most confident women in the state of Maryland will be life-changing. Because this is my life and my dream, and it’s not up to anyone else to decide if my dream is stupid.
If I do not compete, I will never be Miss Maryland USA, but if I do, I’ve got a shot. And win or lose, the experience will change my life.
If there’s something you want to do, something that makes you smile, something that you’re so passionate about that the thought of it keeps you up at night, consider this your green light to chase it. It’s not too late, you’re not too old (or too short!), and it doesn’t matter if no one else understands it but you (seriously). You owe it to yourself to give it a shot. If you do not ask, the answer is always no.
Believe it or not, when you do ask, the answer is often yes. If you fail, you’ll learn, grow, and be better for it. And, you’ll never need to wonder ‘what if.’
Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Here’s to a daring adventure in five-and-a-half inch heels.